ok I have decided I hate my username here and I will once again be making a new LJ... I think this time it will be a blog spot for my blog. Shit Becca tell me which one you use. The catch is it NEEDS to be easy to post links and pics. I hate to leave LJ because I really care about a few people I have never even seen. Kim your on my Myspace so you pretty much get all my updates in your bulletins. I will sill be logging in here to read but I won't be posting much.

Like usual there will probably be posts here and there, unless I actually succeed in moving to another site thing

I have two minutes to write this!!!

Got promoted at my job I make the salads and richards mad because I got promoted higher then he did LOL I ROCK

Fell down ont heskateboard got hurt REAL bad

Love it here

the library is about to close

moving to Idaho today... in about an hour

I am not taking my computer but Richard is. Also got a card reader for his camera so expect picture posts.

Love you all.

I am switching to a paper journal for a while.

More honesty

when she saw me packing she asked me to stay here because she needs me... there goes that theory

she said she'd like me to write her letters... and she is grown up enough now to understand she's getitng them so there is a tought

I just had a fantastic idea, which turned into another fantastic idea.

Ok so I was thinking of making a blanket out of jeans with little pockets on top and what not and the undr side being flannell,

Then I remembered how I had saved Rains baby clothes and cut the newborn ones up for a quilt and was waititng on a couple years worth of clothes to sew them together. I think they burned int he fire, if they were magically saved beforehand I will eb amazed, and I really wish I knew if her blessings dress had been svaed or if I stored it at my parents(I don't think so)

So anyways I was thinking all is NOT lost int he idea. With the baby clothes they were veyr small and it seemed only a reminder ot me and not 100% something Iw anted to do.

So I was thinkng this summer she will visit and Iw ant to buy her all new clothes (instructions to dad send only two sets. Me and her can go to the bins slaes clearance for the first stuffs. Anyways So then at the end of the summer instead of sending these clothes home with her I can makeher a quilt and a documentation of her first visit to live with her mom in Oregon (not like staying in a hotel with grandma saying I want to go to moms house and there being no house)

Anyways so that's my idea and some extra ideas are like getting patches from places we visit. Trinkets that can be sewn on or put into pockets. Little reminders etched in stich. Words of wisdom from what you leanred as a three year old (love and education start young) I could get pictures printed onto fabric or I could get her a locket and put it in a pocket.

Make the quilt neverneding where each year we can add more to the edge making it bigger as she grows.

One thing I want is for my daughter to NEVER have a illusion that I am not thinking of her or caring about her. She knows mebetter then anyone can because she spent so long by MY side being MY caretaker and me being hers.

I just want her to know I love her and I am doing whats best for the both of us but that doesn't mean I am not mom and I am not here to guide her through life. She didn't lose my place in her heart.

I can't write it down or it will jinx it but eveyrone cross your fingers!!!!!!!!!

Happy 420

nice the hair place finally wrote me back about doing flyers in exchange for hair credits!!!! YAY!!!!

ok I am going to try really hard to turn some Gwen on, pull up th blinds and clean ym room

Never buy tampons at the dollar store.... NEVER